Trying to not become a lamp in someone's creepy house...

I'm a nerd. I can admit this because at least I'm a cool nerd. I like to table top game, like DnD and Vampire: The Masquerade. Newly single, I thought it'd be a good idea to reinstate my dating site account. BIG MISTAKE! I got a flood of creepies and all kinds of random undesirable responses. Mostly they were hook up offers (No, thank you. I don't want VD) or desperate, "You're so beautiful."

Then the other night, I got a message from some guy. He said, "i saw you like table top gaming. well. im kind of getting a dnd group together and was wondering if you would be interested?" I thought to myself... THANK GOODNESS! Nerds to hang out with since the rest of my friends have lives, careers, and significant others.

Today, I ventured off to his house to meet him and the other players in the group. As I walked in... I realized something was terribly wrong. I was the only person there. Apparently, everyone else was "late."

I thought to myself : "Oh god... I'm going to die a cancer cunt in the middle of Rolling Acres with no one to hear me scream."

He kept commented on how cool I was and I finally was able to steer the topic to the game. We talked for a while, but dude could not stop staring at me. Either I had a boogie or he'd never seen a real girl that games. Other people showed up and it ended up being fine.... with the exception of a few "tickles" to see if I were ticklish and weird pats on my head.

Finally, I was ready to go and was told I couldn't leave. Luckily, other people showed up right as I was about to lose my shit and make a run for it. It got a weird... lay on top of me hug goodbye and got the frick out of there.

So much for easing into the dating world and just jumping into the creepy, shallow end of the gene pool. Now... I'm not sure if I will go back for character rolls or just cut my losses and run.

~Mar~

Becoming Jabba the hutt

Leaving my house has become a rare occurrence for the last couple days. I went grocery shopping with my mother and felt like I'd accomplished something.

Bathing.... optional.

On the plus side, I did hit walmart and dye my hair darker. I haven't done anything with it.

Last night, I thought it'd be a great idea to drink my sorrows last night. Best idea EVER! I got my drink on.... slept in.... life is good.

~Mar~

Time changes everything....

A few years ago... newly single and ready to tackle the world, I started this blog. I didn't stay single for long and ended up in a couple of relationships. I was struggling in life and didn't know where to go with my career. I found a couple great internships that really shaped me as an artist. I also found love on the way... well... failure and love.

The last two years have been a great growth period for me. I've gotten ready to go to grad school and yet again, discovered that I am not enough.

Geesh, I sound like a bad life time movie.

Either way, I'm back home in Peoria now after living in Memphis, TN and Lexington, KY for the last two years. I've decided to get an exciting new job... and save up for grad school. I've been single for a little less than 12 hours and I'm already throwing myself on the dating market.... lets see how this turns out. It's a new, brilliant day and I'm ready to tackle whatever comes my way.

Today... what's coming my way is a whole lot of pre-surgery doctor visits and hanging out with the bunnies.

I recently (in the last week) have acquired two bunnies, who are most likely evil geniuses plotting to take over the world. One is a lionhead named Steve, and the other is a lop eared mix named Sadie (after the Beatles, of course). They've become the best friends and are, by chance, the cutest thing you will ever see.

Exhibit 1:
















Exhibit 2:















So, there's your happy pictures for the day... and I go to tackle the world.

~Mar~